Thoughts n all

Today is one of those days where my mind is all over the place. Dare i admit it to anyone let alone everyone.

So much has happened this year

Got Married
Got Sick
Almost died
Almost got divorced
Put on 4 or 5kgs

all in less than 4 months

These are big things, maybe not to some, but to me they are.

The day i got married, was the greatest day of my life, i really felt like everything was falling into place.  We never really had any plans for the next 6 months, just to carry on living as we were, take some time out to enjoy each other, get used to being married.

2 and a half months later, i was lying in hospital, fighting for my life.
Praise God and God alone for the miracle of life, that i sit here today able to type this.

by all rights, things should have been ok, shouldnt they have been?
it just got worse, who knew!

a brand spanking new marriage, 2 and a half months fresh, threatened by a depression that i had never known was even possible.
but again, Praise God for the miracle of restoration.
Our marriage is stronger than ever.

i put on a few kilo's during this time and i have always been one that has had to work hard at staying thin(ish), so now i have kicked it into high gear! eating healthy and DH and signed up to Virgin Active and will start gyming! i just need to get a clearance letter from my specialist and then i am A for Away! really looking forward to this journey!

but today, i sit and wonder about the future, when we will have children etc.... silly i know, after everything i have been through, you are probably wondering, how is it possible that i can even think of extending our little family!

logically yes, i might even tend to agree with that thought, but even with everything that happened, it does not take away the desire to have kiddies! it has possibly made the desire stronger.  Knowing that life is so short. I will be 30 soon, scary thought, most of my friends have children, and i dont :o( i always wanted to be a young mom too, but as i head to my 30's i dont feel 30, time to embrace this age! its the new 20's with a lot more wisdom, so i will still be a young mom.

i know the moment will pass and i will be able to think straight later, but for now i will get this off my chest.

i also know the Lord will bless us with a child when the timing is right.  When my body is physically stronger and once DH and i have had more time to adjust after everything that has happened.

im looking forward to 2012, new beginnings! new plans, new dreams!
its a start of a new decade for me! and i am going to love every minute of it! i have a Gracious God leading the way and a wonderful husband at my side!

what more do i need!


MuCh LoVe

MiSh xXx