Santa Clause is Coming.... To Town

Soooooooooo, I put my Christmas Tree up! Yay for me!

Totally loving it!
But, it seems soooo empty and almost every branch has a decoration on it! Go Figure!
Its probably because i am NOT a tinsel person and i have been struggling to find beads in the right colour!

UNTIL YESTERDAY BABY!

As it were, i was with my cousin walking around a PTA shopping centre and we walked past, you wont believe it, PEP, and my eye caught the pink beads! so in we go and i almost fell on my back when i saw the price, R7.99 a packet, what a flippen bargain!

i just had to have them!

Brian ordered pink LED's for my tree, but the guy never placed the order with the supplier and i was getting so annoyed waiting so long, so i just got white LED's, not my favourite but its lights nevertheless.

and it does look very pretty at night when the lights are on!

Ok, so here are some pics.

my awesome bargain beads! R7.99 from PEP

This star hubby bought me from Crazy Store, i think it cost around the region of about R40 - Nice star, Nice price

and.... my tree

Hope you are all looking forward to Christmas as much as i am

mUcH lOvE

mIsH xXx

Thoughts n all

Today is one of those days where my mind is all over the place. Dare i admit it to anyone let alone everyone.

So much has happened this year

Got Married
Got Sick
Almost died
Almost got divorced
Put on 4 or 5kgs

all in less than 4 months

These are big things, maybe not to some, but to me they are.

The day i got married, was the greatest day of my life, i really felt like everything was falling into place.  We never really had any plans for the next 6 months, just to carry on living as we were, take some time out to enjoy each other, get used to being married.

2 and a half months later, i was lying in hospital, fighting for my life.
Praise God and God alone for the miracle of life, that i sit here today able to type this.

by all rights, things should have been ok, shouldnt they have been?
it just got worse, who knew!

a brand spanking new marriage, 2 and a half months fresh, threatened by a depression that i had never known was even possible.
but again, Praise God for the miracle of restoration.
Our marriage is stronger than ever.

i put on a few kilo's during this time and i have always been one that has had to work hard at staying thin(ish), so now i have kicked it into high gear! eating healthy and DH and signed up to Virgin Active and will start gyming! i just need to get a clearance letter from my specialist and then i am A for Away! really looking forward to this journey!

but today, i sit and wonder about the future, when we will have children etc.... silly i know, after everything i have been through, you are probably wondering, how is it possible that i can even think of extending our little family!

logically yes, i might even tend to agree with that thought, but even with everything that happened, it does not take away the desire to have kiddies! it has possibly made the desire stronger.  Knowing that life is so short. I will be 30 soon, scary thought, most of my friends have children, and i dont :o( i always wanted to be a young mom too, but as i head to my 30's i dont feel 30, time to embrace this age! its the new 20's with a lot more wisdom, so i will still be a young mom.

i know the moment will pass and i will be able to think straight later, but for now i will get this off my chest.

i also know the Lord will bless us with a child when the timing is right.  When my body is physically stronger and once DH and i have had more time to adjust after everything that has happened.

im looking forward to 2012, new beginnings! new plans, new dreams!
its a start of a new decade for me! and i am going to love every minute of it! i have a Gracious God leading the way and a wonderful husband at my side!

what more do i need!


MuCh LoVe

MiSh xXx

Dear God

Please make me thin.....

this is my prayer of late, I tell the Lord, or i remind Him (like He doesnt know) that i am a good girl....... i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont do bad things, so why do i have to work SO hard to be thin :o(

Since i started this diet and gruelling process, i feel totally separated from life (so dramatic i know lol)

Last night, it was my (not so brilliant) idea to run to the shops.... completely forgetting that its uphill, (when you are so unfit, a slight incline is very much like pollyshorts), OMW, i was finished, my calves were literally ON FIRE!

But i just keep reminding myself, it will be worth it in the end!

Looking at bikini's yesterday, was actually excrutiating, sometimes i feel like i am the only one who feels like that in the shops!

well fat no more! see you all on the thin side :o)

mUcH lOvE

mIsH xXx

Fat Away!

Today sees the start of a new journey for me

As mentioned in a previous post, I got sick in August 2011, so exercise has been pretty limited as I don’t know my limits as yet. I suppose I am pretty nervous in case something goes wrong again! But today I was walking around the Irene Village Mall and popped into Mr. P and caught sight of myself in the mirror and was totally NOT impressed with what I saw staring back at me, so instead of waiting until Monday, I start today!

So now I am on the ultimate diet until I reach my goal weight! 55kg!

Hopefully I will get around to doing a weekly update of my progress, (maybe even a picture or 2)

It all starts with the ever gross meal replacement :o( this stuff is awful, it’s really thick and VERY sweet.

I decided to go with “Vanilla”, I can’t stomach strawberry or chocolate, and clearly vanilla either, but it’s been bought and I HAVE to drink it.

Then we have:

Fat Binding Chitosan, which helps bind fat molecules that are consumed, therefore reducing fat absorption.

Potent Thermogenic which is a Fat Burning Formula

Mega B-Vitamin Complex with optimal dosages for maximizing energy and anti-stress benefits (woohoo)

Hubby walks with me every night, but it doesn’t seem to be helping at all, so I am going to run a bit, not too much, perhaps we go around the block, running for as much as I can without exhausting my lungs!

Keep an eye out if you wish for further posts, I hope you will all walk this journey with me…

MuCh LoVe

MiSh XxX

Colouring My World

Ola Everyone,

So in spite of everything that has happened (as per my previous post), hubby agreed with me when i said i wanted to add some colour to the decor in our house to add to the happiness we're experiencing once again!

So after much deliberation we decided to add Turquoise to our beige and chocolate brown lounge.

here on some pictures of the goodies hubby bought me yesterday!

Loving the the different textures on this cushion
From Mr. Price home - R69.99



These are the throws he bought me, I'm not 100% sure yet how i am going to use them,
but i will figure it out over the weekend. Mr. Price R170.00 (i think)



Hubby got to this cushion before i did and he really liked it, so we had a winner.
i decided that i want different textures and styles, so i am not going to go with the same cushions - Mr. Price R59.99 (i think) lol

Full view of my favourite textured cushion

Next post:  My newest feel good item from hubby!


MuCh LoVe

mIsH xXx

The Silent Killer...... living with the disease.

Wow, so its been quite a while since I was on here. I actually had to play a bit of trial and error in order to remember my user name and password..... I used to have another blog, but in typical Michelle style, i forgot the username and password, and whilst trying to access this one, i found the other one.... go figure! i have to laugh at myself..... if i dont, know one else will.

So, some people know (perhaps most), but the reason i havent posted in so long is because i unfortunately got sick.... i have in actual fact, ummed and aaahhhed over whether or not i was going to post about this and originally decided i wasnt going to, but i have decided to go ahead and do it anyway and perhaps, its in a bid to create more awareness about the topic.

lets go back a few months:

12 August 2011: 
this date saw both my husband and myself making our way to my Mother In Law to stay the night.
We arrived and shortly after that, i said to Brian that i wasnt feeling to great, it felt as if i was having an allergic reaction to something.
2 allergex tablets later and a bad nights sleep, it was finally Saturday.

13 August 2011:
Very early that morning, around 6h30, i told hubby that i needed to get home in order to use the Nebulizer. 
so we left......

but i never made it home

(anything you read here on out, is factual, however i have no memory of this, all information is directly from my husband and hospital reports)

Brian rushed me to the Wilgers Hospital as i had already passed out in the car.
there i was treated with oxygen, but my condition worsened and i was then what is medically termed, intubated; where pipes were pushed down my throat in order to allow the machines to breathe for me.... also known as machanical ventilation.

During this time, my husband and the hospital picked up complications with my medical aid, and all my family could do, was watch how i was stabalized and transported by ambulance to another hospital.... Pretoria Academic, where i was treated in ICU for 6 days. (many hospitals i have been in, but none compare to the treatment i received in ICU at this hospital - i will blog about this another time)

I am told that i was in and out of conciousness for 4 days, but during this time, they were lessening the workload of the machines, in order to allow me to breathe on my own.  So on the Tuesday, they removed the pipes when the saw that i no longer needed the assistance of the machines.

My first memory is on Tuesday, time or even estimate is not known, but i remember my husband saying to me:  "hello my angel, do you know where you are?"  i was only able to shake my head and he proceeded to very briefly tell me that i had had an asthma attack on Saturday and that it was now Tuesday.

everything is very fuzzy, and according to the doctors, i will never regain my memory of that time.

i lost my voice due to damage on my vocal chords, but i was told the damage is not permanent, however, i dont sound exactly the same as i did, but close enough and i am thankful that i can still talk!

Recovery has taken a very long time and i am still going through it all. 

i wont go into the gory details of it all, as some of it is not very pleasant, and it took me 2 months to just accept what had happened.

All i want to say, is look after yourselves, what happened to me was awful and you very quickly discover the fine line between life and death, BUT, what my family had to go through was possibly even worse.
My Dad told Brian, "nothing you said to me about this situation could have prepared me for what i saw"  and Brian said my dad cried, to watch your daughter lying in a hospital bed unconcious with pipes everywhere, was just too much for him. 

This incident, put a huge strain on my life and especially on my marriage. I feel that what happened, was possibly supposed to make us stronger, but it didnt, it pushed us so far apart, we didnt know each other anymore.  i really thought it was the end of the road for us.

but God is good and HE can restore ANYTHING that has been destroyed and HE did.
my marriage is stronger than ever and i am happier now than i have ever been.

if you know of anyone that suffers from ASTHMA, dont shrug it off, its a horrible disease and it kills!

its now Friday and i am off to prepare myself for hospital next week!
specialist visits every month and medication everyday.

MuCh LoVe To YoU aLl

mIsH xXx